Psalm ‭31:14

Last week was one of those #momfail kind of weeks. I’ve gotten to that stage of motherhood where I no longer get to control their every movement, and guess what? I’m not a fan!! My oldest son Reece chose classes last week for his senior year of high school and his class choices were not mine. I didn’t handle it as well as I could have. I said some great things in some not so great ways. Don’t get me wrong, my reasons why he should choose different classes were valid and they still are, but there wasn’t a lot of patience on my part and there wasn’t a lot of listening to him either. But a week later I’ve gained the clarity to see that his life is not mine. He has his own thoughts, desires, and pursuits. And short of him doing something crazy or dangerous, I’m at the point where I have to let go and give him some independence because he’s on the cusp of adulthood.
That.Is.HARD!!!! I feel like God is gently reminding me that my kids were never really mine. They’re His. My dream for my kids is that they love Jesus and that they learn to trust Him far better than their mom ever does. But the details on how they do that…That’s up to them. Their career path, their life choices, while I hope they want and listen to my advice, the ultimate decisions are theirs. It almost hurts me to type that out because while I know it’s true, I’m still in the place where I’m praying that God makes my heart and mind truly grasp that fact.
Free will. I don’t understand exactly why God gives us this, but I’m beginning to see glimpses. What I do know is that God knows EVERYTHING. That His ways are PERFECT. His plans are GOOD. And that He adores my sweet Reece much more than I ever could. Those are enough reasons for me to willingly step back and begin to let go (but with lots of time spent on my knees in prayer).
Girls, life continues to throw me things that I’m not quite ready for! You’ve been there, right? Any words of wisdom that God gave to you during those times?
I’m praying that God teaches us in these situations to trust Him completely, to pray for His will, and to take leaps of faith. I’m so thankful that I have Jesus to lean on…I’m so thankful that I can truly say He is my God!
“But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God.”” Psalm ‭31:14‬
❤ Trisha